It's funny you should ask me why I never visit home
It's just awkward that your company makes me feel more alone
And I'm tired of pretending nothing's wrong
We used to get our laughs in the cheapest fucking ways
It never seemed mean but I've been thinking back these days
And I'm the one that changed
Sometimes I wish you could do the same
I've been trying to wash these words off of my lips
Find something honest to replace them with
And I don't hate you
I just know you'll never get it, and you don't have to get it
And I wish you wouldn't ask about my best laid plans
You wouldn't like the answer if I had one
And your disappointed looks always keep me on the hook
But I refuse to die for that
This isn't what you want, but this isn't about you
I'm just trying to flush the suburbs from my blood
And I'm scared that you're the person I'll become
And I don't hate you
I just know you'll never get it
And you don't have to get it
You just have to respect it
I'm just trying to clean the garbage from my floor
Or maybe just hide behind my door
I don't hate you
I just know you'll never get it
We'll probably just forget it