It's funny you should ask me why I never visit home It's just awkward that your company makes me feel more alone And I'm tired of pretending nothing's wrong We used to get our laughs in the cheapest fucking ways It never seemed mean but I've been thinking back these days And I'm the one that changed Sometimes I wish you could do the same I've been trying to wash these words off of my lips Find something honest to replace them with And I don't hate you I just know you'll never get it, and you don't have to get it And I wish you wouldn't ask about my best laid plans You wouldn't like the answer if I had one And your disappointed looks always keep me on the hook But I refuse to die for that This isn't what you want, but this isn't about you I'm just trying to flush the suburbs from my blood And I'm scared that you're the person I'll become And I don't hate you I just know you'll never get it And you don't have to get it You just have to respect it I'm just trying to clean the garbage from my floor Or maybe just hide behind my door I don't hate you I just know you'll never get it We'll probably just forget it