And here's something I wrote for you my dear And can you please come home and help me brace this mystery That I've worked up in my tiny head And it feels like so long Since I've felt the warmth of your hand Or anyone's for that matter Now answer me this, was it all a lie? Or was I just surrounded by a lot of good lies The thought what they were saying was the truth And fountain of youth and I hope that's true 'Cause the only thing I hold close my dear That our Lord and Saviour will bring me to sanity and understandably And I tried so hard to reopen all my wounds And bleed them dry so depression Could grab that [?] hold around my neck Like that noose I so long for To set me free from all this mess But best to forget but that's what they said But that's what I thought And I once sought salvation in a drug That was more powerful than your love Considering your drug was once my love And it's [?] (To face the fact that the fabric that was once my behaviour And [?] just like I asked her to [?] something, someone, somehow my fear is real At least for me to feel At least for you to feel And my old friend And why should you live this life?) This domesticated life [?] waited but not undated The arrival of our Lord And I hated the fact that I made you so frustrated Which left you feeling so unappreciated That I loved my God more than you And out of the blue, you left like the flu [?] and [?] I guess I don't wanna face the fact That I'm still missing you And this was such a big thing that impacted my youth So I'm writing this for you and if you can hear me now I want you to know that I still love you the same way I used to And you took two years from my life And it felt like it meant nothing to you Just like a stain on your new shirt And just wash it But that stain, so dark, so [?] in my vision Which left such a collision Which left me so much grief And I once had beliefs But that was before me and you, of course My old friend