Now I'm tryna say the things on my mind
Life's been a mess drown me in the river nile
Then you take me to the grave on the 9th
At night, bury me in the 9th month of the 9th year
After I die, yeah I don't give a fuck triple nine my guy
That's how I want it done
I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live poor
The devil on my shoulder telling me I'll die numb
Oh uh, yeah
I don't really wanna go
But I'm haunted by anxiety oh no
And I can't even pretend this is no joke
Oh uh oh uh
My heart's breaking
Soul's hurt and my memories are fading
Got no love from my family no rating
And no lies I just feel like deviating
It is so crazy
Oh became a lonely kid
Now I feel like I don't even wanna stay
In this world since the very day you passed away
It's so hard
I mean Only I know
How hard it's been for me just growing up
Since the age of 10 I ain't had motherly love
And lately I miss her so much it all just hurts yeah
Y'all don't know me
Please don't judge me
I don had too many nightmares before me
And I've been tryna stomach all the pain so I don't fall deep
Sinking in my misery it's lonely I cannot live
Sinking in my misery it's lonely I cannot leave
I don took percecets and a couple pill of molly
And I pray to God that he don chase these demons from me
Lately in my feelings
Now I'm tryna say the things on my mind
Life's been a mess drown me in the river nile
Then you take me to the grave on the 9th
At night, bury me in the 9th month of the 9th year
After I die, yeah I don't give a fuck triple nine my guy
That's how I want it done
I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live poor
The devil on my shoulder telling me I'll die numb