I'm a lonely boy and it's a lonely world
I've tried everything I can
But it won't it won't stop going in circles
No matter what I do I'll always have this pain internally
Low expectation because nothing works so perfectly
I found a haven out on Oliver
I had to get away 'cause
If I would've stayed I would have gone insane
I can never just articulate significance of pain
And when it feels like there's no God then who the fuck am I to blame
I got to blame myself, I gotta work on it
Improve my mental health, 'cause it has gone to shit
And everything I tried it doesn't change a bit
It's like I have the last puzzle piece and it just doesn't fit
I'm losing patience, I try my best but I can't fight it
I'm filled with hatred, it burns me bad but I ignite it
It creeps within my body shows its presence once I'm writing
I gotta face it, overcome because I'm done with hiding
(I need to take my vitamin D, I need to stop breaking down)
(Get outside more)
(Focus on myself, Oliver that's good)
I felt love I felt hate and
Everything in between
Been alive for 20 years but I still don't know what it means
Everyone experiences everything differently
No one can tell someone what they should or they shouldn't dream
It's your own life, take your own advice
Follow yourself 'cause when you die it's only you
Know there's no one else
It's okay to go through pain 'cause you can always heal damage
Though if I didn't do this music, I wouldn't forgive myself