What a strange twist of fate To leave my power cable At the office today Late at night I drove back There you were On the curb With your hand on him that way I watched the two of you Get on a bus And I followed you home Like a misery addict Dry heaving and weaving through traffic Regressing and stressing, my breathing erratic When the truth is disgusting I feel like I must stare If I want to move on, it's the best way to get there On that day I began to unravel I could see all the knots you had tied I could handle the loss of a friend and a lover I could weather the shame and the shots to my pride And I feared for my work reputation I was scared that my lie would blow up in my face But what I was most afraid of Was that I'd go back To being just like you Playing fast and loose Playing fast and loose with the truth I worked so hard to get past it And I swear that you set me back I don't ever want to go back to The cowardice of youth The cowardice of youth The cowardice of my youth I just couldn't get it right this time Once again I had to learn that lesson Yeah, ok I saw the warning signs But I was running from a deep depression And if I really try to pick apart the reasons that I settled for a mistress When I could've found a wife I focus on the most pathetic notion: that just coasting with a coward meant I wouldn't really ever have to try I couldn't give you my heart, so I just tried to fix your life Now the karma's so thick I wanna cut it with a knife We were running our respective patterns into the ground And now I'm finally climbing out while you just fucking stay down So what I am most afraid of Is that I'll go back To being just like you Playing fast and loose Playing fast and loose with the truth I worked so hard to get past it And I swear that you set me back I don't ever want to go back to The cowardice of youth The cowardice of youth The cowardice of my youth