I am amused by open wounds I pick and pick until the scar sits Beautifully there then I pick again Years of experience Unbearable ennui I am a masochist and hedonist at heart My arteries and my brain make that quite apparent And if there's love It got lost in my loneliness And if there's love It got lost somewhere along the way Speaking of unfaithful ways, Mistakes that I've made My head hangs in shame for following the desires of being desired Each moment is measured in heartbeats And each piece of flesh that connects does not make me complete May my mind settle down My demons are speaking too loud I am my worst enemy (I've lost myself since I've lost you, I've lost myself) I am my worst enemy (I've lost myself, I've lost myself) Cauterize the scars I've caused you And realize that I am nothing more than a tragic experience You should always regret but never forget I hurt everyone around me I am amused by open wounds I pick and pick until the scar sits Beautifully there, then I pick again Years of experience Unbearable ennui I am a masochist and hedonist at heart My arteries and my brain make that quite apparent And if there's love It got lost in my loneliness And if there's love It got lost somewhere along the way All these dreams in my head make me wish I was dead So put a gun to my head I just want to forget Underneath my skin lies a skeleton I've been dying to hang inside my closet