Why am I expected to explain
Why I feel the way that I do?
Why I'm so receptive to pain
Why I'm not on the
Same wavelength as you?
I saw your reflection in the razor
I used to wonder if I was alone
With these emotions
That eat away at me
Now I see that we all have them
Just enact upon them differently
So why would you chastise me
For chemicals you can't even see?
I can promise you
You won't unveil anything
Why am I expected to explain
Why I feel the way I do?
Why I'm so receptive to pain
Why I'm not on the
Same wavelength as you?
We all suffer from something
I've felt guilty for every time
I've jumped to the thought of jumping
But don't you think it's fucked up
To make commentary
On the ways I'm weak
Then try to trip me
And call it common courtesy?
Kick the chair you scolded me
For trying to use to reach a conclusion
I'm fortunate to have loosened
The slack of the rope
The lack of hope
I felt for me singed
But it was first degree
The words that left me charred
Came from your lack of empathy
You can keep negating
That I've weathered my hands
Rewriting my script
To no longer yearn for an early exit
I'll pen my positive story arc
I could forgive us both
But I'll never forget what you did
I'm not wed to my misery
Pain is inevitable
But I will kill my regret
No net will ensnare me
Clip my wings
And I'll still find the strength to sing.
I've found reprieve in free verse thinking
I've found the calling to entertain
I've found healing through creating
I've found purpose in my pain
Clip my wings
And I'll still find the strength to sing