Breaking up is really hard to do
I had my first one, maybe at 22
I think my body count is up to 14
And half of them came from the summer that had ensued
Me and my ex had been on different wavelengths
And maybe I wasn't fair to her, I ain't no saint
Thinking of other women when we would kick it
Had to put my phone down as to not bring attention
No straight up infidelity but had my foot out the door, and I would look at some hoes
And I might text 'em sometimes, and I might send some emojis
She was deeply in love with me and I could not reciprocate
I had to break it off, my shoulders feeling that lifted weight
Shortly after discovered my love for myself had dissipated
Trying to make sense of myself when my body on different fragrances
I started fuckin' round, and I'm filling holes now
And I'm ten toes up and I'm ten toes down
Breaking up is really hard to do
I had my 2nd one at 27, you
Would probably realize that I'm 27 now
That shows the urgency within everything I write down
See this one hit a little bit different cause I ain't never felt no true love
Butterflies in your stomach, can't remember who you was
Trying new breakfast spots every week, grading all the potatoes
Setting aside a budget for flowers cause she gon' need those
Peace in my soul, niche inside jokes
The very presence of someone special could feel like home
And when you ain't saying nothing conversation still flows
It's an Energetic language, and what I'm saying she knows
Every day's a brand new uncharted territory
Every day I count blessings, I'm very fortuned
Try to stay present cause the present is ever fleeting
Ironically I thought that time was never leaving
But things switch up, getting distant, at the blink of
An eye and I was doing everything I could think of
It's crazy how life changes getting your pages mixed up
She had a death in the family, started changing perspective
On me, on life, on her path, on her purpose
And whatever I say make her feel like it's diverging
Sometimes people gotta discover some things for themselves
It hurt me partially cause honestly I knew I could help
Maybe paths are meant to be followed
Maybe ours will intersect and reconnect for tomorrow
If they don't maybe that's fine but that's a tough pill to swallow
I Had to take that medication daily, I followed
Directions on bottles in a directionless chapter
Of life as the ice in my veins get stacked up
I'd like to say I'm onto greener pastures
But that type of optimism is a challenge