Yeah
2015 I was thinkin'
How am I gonna go from a prince to a kingpin
Mummy was locked in the Lindin
All things that I've seen from my infant
Fourteen when I first found drinkin'
Then I started sinking
Life was hard, some had it harder
There's no excuses, there's no whinging
Me and my sister and my dad, we was all sharing a one bed flat
Two beds in one room, I was on the sofa
None of my mates ever knew about that
Went to school and I put on a smile
When it gets tough you learn how to act
It was rough, I went through the patch
Now I'm at the front of the batch
Showin' them all, full steam mate, slower than all
Got seeds and I'm sowing them all
Grab the bull by the horns
Can't say that you weren't warned
I'm gonna score everytime I get hold of the bull
When I'm still not holding at all
I wanna see big figures when I go to the hole in the wall
That's one thing for sure
I was buddin' on draws to dampen these thoughts
Downing beers to handle the fear
Me and myself at war, it's a messed up place between these two ears
Sometimes it feels like I've shed way too many tears
'Cause now I'm numb, and we can't roll back the years
I had to face up, I had to wake up
I had to lace up my shoes
Put on the mask as a big entertainer
'Cause I didn't know what to do
I had to man up, I had to stand up
I had to hold my hands up
All smiles on the outside
But inside my soul is bankrupt
I had to face up, I had to wake up
I had to lace up my shoes
Put on the mask as a big entertainer
'Cause I didn't know what to do
I had to man up, I had to stand up
I had to hold my hands up
All smiles on the outside
But inside my soul is bankrupt
2020, now I'm older
Still carrying weight on my shoulders
Still at war with my mind
But somehow gotta stay focused
Somehow gotta watch these guys blowin'
And I know that they're all bogus
Somehow gotta keep it movin'
Even though I feel hopeless
Constant questioning about this career I invested in
'Cause I ain't got nothing else
If it all flops I'll just be a flop like the rest of them
It all hangs in the air, swings like a pendulum
Where's the reverend?
'Cause I need to be part of this testament
Excellence, yeah, that's what I strive for
I've had enough of these eyesores
You'd feel the same if you saw what I saw
That's what I rhyme for
That's why I spit on these beats
That's why I'm grippin' this dream
That's why I've marked every set that I've touched since I was fifteen
I want this vigorously
Listen to me right now
Open your eyes, you can see I'm the guy
If you don't, that's a joke
Either that or you're blind
Ten years, I've been on my grind
I wrote my first bar at the age of nine
I'm destined to take the throne
I've had enough of waiting in line
I had to face up, I had to wake up
I had to lace up my shoes
Put on the mask as a big entertainer
'Cause I didn't know what to do
I had to man up, I had to stand up
I had to hold my hands up
All smiles on the outside
But inside my soul is bankrupt
I had to face up, I had to wake up
I had to lace up my shoes
Put on the mask as a big entertainer
'Cause I didn't know what to do
I had to man up, I had to stand up
I had to hold my hands up
All smiles on the outside
But inside my soul is bankrupt