I cut back one drug and excess on another And it's always by myself But when my friends are here to distract me from me It usually seems to help But I guess that's just as well That I'm here all by myself And nothing seems to help When my thoughts reside in hell You know you control me And you speak through my head from your metal lips And you'll tell me what you think might help myself I thought you might know me Of course, not quite entirely But just enough to know I really needed your help And the stone might break the glass And we'll wait for it to pass Just like snow-covered grass But I think it's time to grasp This motivation that I lack And I'll play the victim And I'll play the mediator Because that's how I solved my problems as a child And you'll be complaining How my problems are not what I thought they were And I'll try my very best to force a smile And I'll think the night away Yeah, I'll think the night away Because once I'm in my head, I can't escape So I'll drink the night away Yeah, I'll drink the night away And I'll wonder if I'll ever be okay And I know it sounds so blue But I wouldn't be here without you I'll keep telling myself I won't kill myself Just as long as I have my fingers But my wishes, oh, they outweigh my wish sticks You knew all too well I wouldn't take care of myself But you could've leaded the right direction And it shows that that was something I was missing Now you want me dead so get out of my head It was you that kept me breathing I was confident that you were here to stay Now I'll click refresh 'til my face turns red And I'm bleeding out my eyelids Just hoping Just wishing For change