High holiday (yeah I'm on high holiday)
Spark up and forget about you for a day
Wake up in the night 'cause I see your face
In my dreams today
I sober up right away
Yeah I'm on high holiday
Down these bottles hoping you decide to stay
Face the fact that you left me just 'cause of me
And all I feel is pain
Yeah I numb my heart, that's the only way
Look
It seems like nowadays I gotta smoke just to feel sum'
Drink just to get numb
Filling up my lungs
I've got some habits but none of them are as bad as you
You got me hooked on a feeling that I don't wanna lose
I'm getting paranoid and I fuckin' hate it
You left my system and I hit the pavement
Since then been replaying old conversations
I'm high so I don't have to face it
High holiday
Spark up and forget about you for a day
Wake up in the night 'cause I see your face
In my dreams today
I sober up right away
Yeah I'm on high holiday
Down these bottles hoping you decide to stay (yeah I'm on high holiday)
Face the fact that you left me just 'cause of me
And all I feel is pain
Yeah I numb my heart, that's the only way
It's been 3 years but not shit has changed
Gettin' fucked up every day
My brain is such a scary place
So I medicate to numb my pain
I lied to you when I said that I'm not sad today, I'm not sad today
But it feels so good just fuckin' up my everything, oh
I'm only happy when I'm high
I take a hit and let my brain pretend that I'm alright, but I wanna die
The thought of you with someone new makes me fuckin' nauseous
Stay high so I don't think about us
High holiday
Spark up and forget about you for a day
Wake up in the night 'cause I see your face
In my dreams today
I sober up right away
Yeah I'm on high holiday (Don't recognize who you are now)
Down these bottles hoping you decide to stay (Did I mean nothing can't figure out)
Face the fact that you left me just 'cause of me (I've got some habits but none of them are as bad as you)
And all I feel is pain (You got me hooked on a feeling that I don't wanna lose)
Yeah I numb my heart, that's the only way