I wish I knew of myself The way I thought i had Before Am I awake Is this home Is this fake? Could this be my happy place? Am I ready to feel this way? 'Cause I know that I've been patient for weeks Something don't feel right and I don't know what it is And after lies and lies I say I'm fine Never used to cry, I cry I waste my time Honestly You'd know that I don't get enough sleep If you took one look, if you still realise its me At least I'm tryna survive Okay, I lied Maybe it's better if the line before was just a lie I'm saying Ooh I don't think I have another clue Where I am and what I gotta do Gotta do, gotta do Everyone says it gets better soon I think my soon may be overdue uh I swear There's no way I'm there yet Not at home I don't think I can stand Feel like I'm losing ya Vision blur And my skin is looking pale I'm sure Forest leaves in my shoes My socks are red I know Bloody trees Think I'm starting to see the crows Almost home GPS says that I'm almost home 2 more roads Turn the corner then my face might glow I can't wait Family waiting for me know I'm close Celebrate knowing that I'm getting close to home 'Cause I know that I've been patient for weeks Something don't feel right and I don't know what it is And after lies and lies I say I'm fine Never used to cry, I cry I waste my time Honestly You'd know that I don't get enough sleep If you took one look, if you still realise its me Don't even wanna survive I'm not gon' lie mmm I'm saying Ooh I don't think I have another clue Where I am and what I gotta do Gotta do, gotta do Everyone says it gets better soon I think my soon may be overdue uh I swear There's no way I'm there yet Not at home Not at home Ah Mmm