I can't bring myself to seek the truth any more Don't ask me how I feel I'm neither up nor down Who's keeping score anyhow? I can't face you fully or look you in the eye these days Don't think that I don't want to But my heart is sore I'm looking down and down I go I know two worlds And I don't know which is real So I choose each word And the darkness I conceal Ah, oh! Where did he go? High then low I'm still searching for my soul So near but they never found me And I'll wait a while in my silent purgatory I can't bring myself to say I love you any more Don't think that I don't want to But on these words I'm choking now somehow I try to hold you but my arms are thin these days Don't think I should be leaned on This beam's been brought down And down I go once more I know two worlds And I don't know which is real So I write this down And hope the light I can reveal