It's like a see-saw getting through the day Trying to stay present in a meaningful way I can't handle it, I feel so strange Move my body without thinking Go for a walk at the crack of dawn Try to dust off what I've been sleepin' on Get a coffee, put some shit in it Walk it home and try not to spill it Turn the radio on Like a comfort blanket Like modern medicine Like history repeating I'm afraid of history repeating Drag the recycling back to the garage The cut in my leg all covered in gauze Dad told me I should get it stitched But I can't stand hospitals, they make me sick They just remind me of when things were worse Tests and injections, treatments that didn't work Fluorescent lighting, crying in the bathroom Blood on a towel, industrial vacuum And a radio on Like a comfort blanket Like modern medicine Like history repeating I'm afraid of history repeating I'm so much better now, I swear But some days I can't shake the feeling That I used to be so hopeless And I used to want to quit, I guess Some things you just carry with you Some things you just carry with you Some things you just carry with you I used to have to go stand in a tube Naked with goggles on, black light mood My own little spaceship, just me alone No distractions, no tin can phone I wonder what I was thinking about When the lights came on before they let me out There was even a countdown just like on TV 3, 2, 1 beam me up baby Turn the radio on Like a comfort blanket Like modern medicine Like history repeating Like history repeating Like history repeating Like history repeating