All my intrusive thoughts are making real desires I want you to reach into me and uncross all my wires Don't know where panic stops and passion begins I am an easy target, a natural masochist It's painful, it hurts At least I know it should There's only so much you can take before it feels good Want things I shouldn't want Want things I'd never say You make me way too happy when i should be so afraid (CUT ME UP AND SEE WHAT COMES OUT MAKE ME CRY AND SAVOR THE SOUND STITCH ME UP BEFORE I GET FOUND SAVE ME FOR ANOTHER ROUND) I want you to hate me To just nauseate me The pain is enticing The fear is inviting You're so damn adoring It's so fucking boring I'm asking politely For you to excite me Alarms are going off The sound is killing me The aching of my memories is inconveniencing You are not threatening, you are not harming me And that's more disturbing than any threat could ever be You hold me so close Make me feel so safe But i know that isn't love Those aren't the rules of the game Need you to make me bleed Need you to make me scream Cause that's the only love I've known and that's the love I need ♪ (You make me feel special You treat me so gentle As if I deserve it As if I'm a person) I want you to hate me To just nauseate me The pain is enticing The fear is inviting You're so damn adoring It's so fucking boring I'm asking politely For you to excite me I want you to hate me To just nauseate me The pain is enticing The fear is inviting You're so damn adoring It's so fucking boring I'm asking politely For you to excite me