Sometimes I find peace and quiet
But only when I set a timer for three minutes to try and stop compulsions
Tiny light beams will bleed through the cracks
But this giant lock won't open
All my securities, they lie within my magnum opus
And they love me for it
That be for better or worse, I'm not sure
But it's so euphoric
When people love you for the same reasons you hate yourself
I make myself vulnerable because I think it may could help
But what if they don't take it well
Maybe I should quit
What if everything I hoped for
Everything I ever want in life is here and it's all over
This is it
But I got so much left to go
I got so much left to prove I hope you know
But who am I trying to convince
We've been so discouraged looking for the truth
If I love the world, then God, what do I do
Run from our mistakes but
They still seem to chase us
Wait, wait
I think it's a rocky road ahead
Beat myself up thinking about who I mislead
Run from our mistakes but
They still seem to chase us
Wait, wait
Sometimes I find peace and quiet
But only when I set a timer for one minute to try and stop compulsions
Everything I devote time to makes me cry inside
But all that makes me happy seems to be the last thing that I carve out time for
I could never be like Jesus, what do I even try for
I'm only as good as my biggest weakness, what do I write these rhymes for
I spend too much time overthinking and that's probably why my mind's sore
The world's approval means nothing, why is that the thing I strive toward
I should quit
What if everything I hoped for
Everything I ever want in life is here and it's all over
This is it
But I got so much left to go
I got so much left to prove I hope you know
But who am I trying to convince
We've been so discouraged looking for the truth
If I love the world, then God, what do I do
Run from our mistakes but
They still seem to chase us
Wait, wait
I think it's a rocky road ahead
Beat myself up thinking about who I mislead
Run from our mistakes but
They still seem to chase us
Wait, wait
They still seem to chase, chase
They always chase
I can't escape