I was doing great yesterday and then we ran out of sparkling water I tried to play it off like it didn't piss me off more than it did But it did And then my cat ran out of food So he went and ate food out of the other cat's bowl Which is like a whole thing But honestly, I feel like I can kind of relate? I don't know what that means I feel so good now that I'm sober I swear I'm not so bored that I'm huffing paint pens Just thinking about it Sneaking through back rooms Soliciting coke heads, I need to breathe Just leave me alone Yeah I feel so good now that I'm sober I swear I'm not so bored that I'm shooting black tar I miss sniffing horse medication with fake friends And counting the weekdays, I need to breathe Just leave me alone Sometimes I sleep through the day Don't mind me when I do I'm just crumbling under the weight Don't need you, I don't need you 'Cause everyone is a different thing I promise that I wouldn't do it without telling you To find me under the waves Where everything is blue Take me back to the menagerie, my god I miss it They told me when I got older I'd get it out my system Too far down the river to behave animalistically I wish to live aquatically I'll take this broken bottle And carve myself some gills so I can breathe under the water I'd rather blow my head off than end up like how my father did Paint a pretty picture on the motherfucking walls with it When they find me I hope my gray matter goes with the interior I feel so good now that I'm sober I swear I'm not so bored that I'm huffing paint pens Just thinking about it Sneaking through back rooms Soliciting coke heads, I need to breathe Just leave me alone Yeah I feel so good, we should get fucked up It's okay to fuck up 'cause we're all in a matrix That's why I'm wasted, I swear that I'm different I promise I'm changing, I need to breathe Just leave me alone