So I got drunk again
I didn't wanna know what was happening
Too many damn years stuck in my head
Abandoning
Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it
Drunk again
I didn't wanna know what was happening
Too many damn years stuck in my head
Abandoning
Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it
Feels like I'm going nowhere
Fulfill my nightmare
I don't get over the mountains I climb
I feel like a loser
A substance abuser
Can't fight the river
That's pulling me down
I don't believe in myself
I can't walk through hell
Do it all by myself
I don't ask for help
I try to manage the pain
I just drink it away
Don't wanna feel this way
So I got drunk again
I didn't wanna know what was happening
Too many damn years stuck in my head
Abandoning
Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it
I'm not where I was
But I'm not where I wanna be
Do you know what I mean?
Still got so far to go
And this road that I lead's
Got me down on my knees
Slowly killing me
Ohh
I've tried to work through the pain
I've tried numbing my brain
I've tried everything
I'm still going insane
Set my dream up in flames
Threw ambition away
I can't feel this way
So I got drunk again
I didn't wanna know what was happening
Too many damn years stuck in my head
Abandoning
Everything I want 'cause I just can't do it
Stuck again
Don't wanna think about how lost I am
Distracted I'm procrastinating
Always faded
Maybe I won't ever make it
Maybe I won't ever make it