I've had chains wrapped around me for the last seven years I crowned myself Messiah since Messiah was not near I shook my fist at heaven, I told God to go to hell There was so much that I had to say but had kept it to myself I had to tell you how I hated you that day I had to learn how hard it was for me to say It hurts even now to know those words came from my mouth But I had to tell you Though I walked in the darkness, the darkness was disguised All the stars before me were a homemade set of skies Then a window opened and the sky burst into flame I could not bear to face you, I was naked and ashamed So I had to tell you how I hated you that day And I had to learn how hard it was for me to say It hurts me even now to know those words came from my mouth But I had to tell you Now standing in the ruins is a lily undisturbed Owning nothing but its life and a humble place on earth Born to bear beauty unto the great and to the small Its story, in some measure, is the story of us all I had to tell you (how I needed you that day) I had to tell you (how I wanted you to stay beside me) I had to tell you (but I hope that you can still forgive me) I had to tell you (that I love you)