Lay in bed It's been three past ten I've been faking death when there's no one around (SUGARRUSHH, Jimmy) Jeez, I've been staring at my phone for years I can't man up couldn't face my fears I've been holding back half of my tears I'm so lost Jeez, I've been staring at my phone for years I can't man up couldn't face my fears I've been holding back half of my tears I'm so lost Okay, I'm fine, girl, I'm solid She say, she likes my nail polish Black paint, I dropped out of college Searching for the person I wanna be I feel so stupid for letting go Hindsight, I swear that I didn't know If I could I'd quit the chemicals sooner than you'd ever know I've been browsing, seeing similar faces Looking at past messages to find all the traces Of every little instance where you said that you hate me I don't blame you I've been missing you lately Broken, mistreated Believed all your reasons And I've been so beaten I'm trying again, I've been Jeez, I've been staring at my phone for years I can't man up couldn't face my fears I've been holding back half of my tears I'm so lost Jeez, I've been staring at my phone for years I can't man up couldn't face my fears I've been holding back half of my tears I'm so lost