I wish you had been at your memorial Seeing someone proposing on stage I couldn't get through my song for you When it came to saying your name I can still see the room at the hospital Pretty, painted tile I can still see your skin turning purple Milly of the Nile ♪ Can you hear me? Did you mean it? Did you plan it out? Or was it an accident? ♪ Time, time up and down the blue screen It's dawn and I'm insane Love's just a word and not what the word means But I'll say it just the same Talking to an entity Made of endless night I dream in TV dialogue A world of shadow and light ♪ I know it don't work that way But maybe you'll come back some day I know it don't work like that But maybe you can take it back ♪ Now that there's no need to say a word Can I still make amends? But silence, the only kindness I heard Forgiveness, the only revenge Meeting all of the people I've heard of from your past Reading through all of your letters Looking for your love ♪ You told me that love Is when someone asks you Please leave me alone And you really do You looked into my eyes 'Til I was your mother and son I tried to look away But saw you in everyone I wish you had been at your memorial Seeing someone proposing on stage