My history surrounds me And it's closing in around my bed And all I have known Has turned to sticks and to stones But these words are wandering/a dream/would ring in my head I've got you paper for ten Not the kind tradition meant But the kind that says I'm walking out that door And my heart breaks in two A little for me and a little for you Still this thing Is just the thing I've got to do For so long I was on my own Seeking shelter from what I've known Like the last leaves of the fall's last embrace Waiting for it all to drop Like a big new year's ball With just a past and a song for the lost I've got you paper for ten Not the kind tradition meant But the kind that says I'm walking out that door And my heart breaks in two A little for me and a little for you Still this thing Is just the thing I've got to do Now the glass has filled with sand I look down and don't know my own hands I thought that surely the answers would be revealed We'd know it'd all been for the better The hurt's past like a forgotten winter But I'm haunted by these words instead When I say it I've got you paper for ten Not the kind tradition meant But the kind that says I'm walking out that door And my heart breaks in two A little for me and a little for you Still this thing Is just the thing I've got to do Still this thing is just the thing that I've It's just the thing that I've gotta do