I take my meds in the morning Then I put on some porn and Hope the sun goes back down I take my meds in the evening Gave up searching for meaning The stars don't guide me now Tell me how I'm supposed to feel Nothing ever seems real Been a while since I've been in the deep end Head above water, why can't I breathe yet? I'm alive but I can't find a feeling Tell me what's better, silence or screaming I take my meds in my suitcase So I can sleep at a friend's place Never make it on my own I take my meds cause I need to Say to the mirror "how are you" Just to feel less alone Tell me how I'm supposed to feel Nothing ever seems real Been a while since I've been in the deep end Head above water, why can't I breathe yet? I'm alive but I can't find a feeling Tell me what's better, silence or screaming Never thought I would get so dependent Let me know if you know where my head went Anything just to feel something different Who am I now when I'm not pretending? I take my meds cause I need to I do what I have to I won't make it on my own