If the rain's the reason for how I feel today That is nowhere near as scary it's something I could take And if the wind's the answer for why I feel these chills I could wrap myself in blankets and maybe just today not take my pills Trying hard to locate this To explain it But everything doesn't make sense except myself I'm a Lotus Gotta own this And travel up through the mud and find some help If the aim of all this searching is trying to find myself I'd be better giving that job to my dog or someone else And if the line's are blurring between sanity and health I owe it to Michael to stop pinning it to him and try to get well Trying hard to locate this To explain it But everything doesn't make sense except myself I'm a Lotus Gotta own this And travel up through the mud and find some help Maybe for today Some other thing could take the blame Instead of hating on my brain And making everyone insane Maybe for today Some other thing could take the blame Instead of hating on my brain And making everyone insane