I just wanna be happy
And I don't care
If it includes you or not
Cause I'm so fed up
Of being stressed out
And falling apart over someone
Who doesn't deserve it at all
And this feeling of wanting
Some social acceptance just
Keeps on resurfacing and I
Can't stop it cause
I'm feeling like its
What I really want
If you wanna cut me off just do it
I don't care if I cared
I'd be running myself back to sleep
Honestly I'm up to here with your bullshit
Cause its not fair I was there
If you ever wanted help from me
Now I'm sitting in my bed
Trying to make amends
Blocked out from all ends
Can't even get your number from a friend
All I wanted was a text saying
What's up what's next
October was a mess
I couldn't hold myself together again
Yeah
What's it all for
Life moves so fast
And I move so slow
So say what you want
Doesn't change who you are
How you came to be part
Of the walls you brought up
Just to keep us apart
Just to make me feel lost
I don't know what I want anymore
And she said
I won't be here for long
So you need to be strong
It affects you too much
And your feelings get rough
And you'll spiral enough
To kill your mood
Don't let the sadness seep in
Cause you'll start giving into
The feeling of wanting to stay introverted
And hide all the hurt and crumble down
And now I'm 17 and nothing has changed
Still feel lonely still feel the pain and
All I can see is that
Life's just a one way glass
If you wanna cut me off just do it
I don't care if I cared
I'd be running myself back to sleep
Honestly I'm up to here with your bullshit
Cause its not fair I was there
If you ever wanted help from me
Now I'm sitting in my bed
Trying to make amends
Blocked out from all ends
Can't even get your number from a friend
All I wanted was a text saying
What's up what's next
October was a mess
I couldn't hold myself together again