I didn't know I was the one who'd call you This late at night I didn't know I was the one who cared more But I guess I won't put up a fight When the sunlight, shines through my windows I promise I'll still be awake 'Cause I don't really sleep much anymore And I'm used to watching daybreak And I wish I could love myself As much as I love everyone else And I'm not sure if I want to die I just don't think that I want to stay alive I'm sorry if this makes you sad It's just how I feel Because most days I don't notice I'm awake Or that any of this is real