'Cause I don't wanna fear you I can't concentrate If I keep seeing your face Showing up in tea leaves Lit up on my TV I can't stand up straight Under your gravity So I lay awake with my eyes closed But who can really sleep When you're counting them high On your long summer drives For mercy's sake Would you look at your life? Would you look at your life? Now I'm not eating I can't speak up Under the table my legs are crossed What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark? What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark? Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part I built up barricades to block my heart 'Cause I don't wanna fear you I don't wanna fear you I can't punctuate These boneless days They keep crawling in Sinking into my skin I'm under your gravity Frozen mathematically And I lay awake with my eyes closed But who can really move When you're counting them high On your long summer drives For mercy's sake, for mercy's sake, for mercy's sake I thought I'd ride all the same roads and skies For mercy's sake Would you look at your life? Would you look at your life? And I'm not breathing I can't speak up Under the table my legs are crossed What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark? What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark? Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part I built up barricades to block my heart 'Cause I don't wanna fear you I don't wanna fear you (What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?) I don't wanna fear you I don't wanna fear you (What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?) Who'd I think I was? I'll never ride all the same roads and skies because I'm under your gravity Frozen mathematically Crushed between your teeth I lay awake with my eyes closed I lay awake with my eyes closed