I've been on my own for too long Feeling down I've been on my own for too long Feeling down I've been turning all my pain and all my problems into progress But never realized I lost myself up in the process Too focused on the content And not enough on context You can't really feed the passion if you're caught up on the profit You can't see the bigger picture if you're never looking up And you can never smell the roses if you're focused on the mud I'm too sick of feeling stuck Kinda plain, giving up Always trying to run away whenever going's getting tough I can feel it in my blood Never satisfied with anything I feel it ain't enough So I keep on chasing highs just so I can feel the rush I just wanna feel alive when I'm sick of feeling numb But I know that in my heart I'm scared of what I could become Been searching for the sun inside my cloudy days Keep saying that I will But I still never change I got everything I wanted just to feel the same And I did everything I could to redirect the blame Make mistakes but I'm looking for atonement Desire's always better in the moment But I keep on hoping That I can find an omen And all of this is nothing but a drop up in the ocean Karma keep me floating They think I'm a poet But honestly I think I need to work on being stoic Cuz I don't wanna be another victim of emotion Know they'll paint me as a villain even if I die heroic It's funny how it goes I been rolling with the bunches through the highs and through the lows And looking for the truth inside the lies that get exposed No matter what it takes I never bend I never fold I just take it day by day and focus on what I control