Why am I awake while everyone is sound asleep at night
Overly consumed by these thoughts in my brain (Ay)
Always have so many reasons why I'm not at peace inside
Might have to consider that's just how I'm made
I can't tell you what happy is supposed to feel like
I can't show you all the smile and shame for grief
I can't explain how sometimes the darkness feels right
But I can tell you what I've done when it's came for me
(Uh) I need a moment to myself (Uh, yeah)
Always overthinking
My emotions overdosing' on my thoughts
Think I need some help
I'm addicted to my pain it distract me when
My brain's feeling overwhelmed
And that all happened twice in a minute
I give it all of my attention and pretend that I didn't
It's fucking pathetic
My eyes twitch a mile a minute
I gotta lie to myself
Cause I'd die if I didn't
I'm on my do or die shit
No excuses type shit
I'm still depressed but I lost homies to that suicide shit
So I won't suicide shit (Heh)
I'd rather lose the fight than
Be the one to lay- lay- lay down
Cause I don't wanna fade- fade- fade out
I was on the way- way down
Now I'm on my own
Gotta keep my head up
Because it's never enough to stay down
(Never enough to stay down)
(Never enough to stay down)
Gotta keep my head up
Because it's never enough to stay-
Heart is silent trying to find to find a breath
I need to be alone I'm tired of all the stress
I seem to focus all on of the lows and not the best so
(Maybe that's my fault)
(Uh) Pressure building its weighing up on my chest
And I wish I could take it back
But it's in the past so I guess we just
Have to learn to accept
But I don't wanna lay- lay- lay down
Cause I don't wanna fade- fade- fade out
I was on the way- way down
Now I'm on my own
Gotta keep my head up
Because it's never enough to stay down
(Never enough to stay down)
(Never enough to stay down)
Gotta keep my head up
Because it's never enough to stay-
Why am I awake while everyone is sound asleep at night
Overly consumed by these thoughts in my brain