I'm less of a lover, than I am a fighter
I stand six foot four in trainers
Which I keep washing machine white
And I'm wind up by people
Who don't just say what they mean
But I find it hard to explain myself
When I'm talking about my feelings
Well, I resist change
To the point that it begins insisting itself upon me
I'm a victim of habit
If I look back over time I've always been
But last sunday I had an experience which turned my life on its head
Now I'm caring and a core with a lifetime unsaid
I feel like
My whole world's falling down
I feel like
My whole world's tumbling down
See I felt useless
Like an unfinished adventure
When she turned around to call me
Catch all of my attention
And the love that she needed
That I just couldn't have given her
Had been found and fulfilled
Within the arms of another
And so I snapped
And I reached out to grab her
I was now tired and tormented
My face dripping with anger
And her words just seemed to serve as more fuel for my fire
I'm hoarse from all this pleading
Like a worn out town choir
I try singing in different keys
To win her back
I made my heart sing like mandolin strings
So I crack
I cry in anger
For it's the closes I've got to reaching within
It's like I'm dangling over the precipice
Unsure of whether or not to fall in
I feel like
My whole world's falling down
I feel like
My whole world's tumbling down
It's like a tide wave of emotions
Running over my spheres
It's like I've been washed up in anger
Doubts, worries and fears
One moment I'm crying out
The next I'm laughing like mad
As if my whole world has been flipping over from happy to sad
I'm back again until I'm in this overflowing pool of morbidity
The saddest I've felt since these feelings first came and filled me
But feelings need revenge before happiness flows
To climb with the highest I've got
To be willing to sink with the lowest
I'm lying in gravity boast not bragging
Built not barriers of existence
I'm crying in panic hold on to habits
Formed out of arrows of existence
And these consistencies I make to keep these consistencies the same
Maintain to stay afloat
Allow me to continue to stay sane
When instead I'm breaking down
All around me it's falling, all the realm
All these roots I thought was solid are being shaken and fell
And when walls fall
Just pure feeling stay behind
It's like I'm waking up in worry
And going to bed crying
It's like I've been building up from base again to seal in my strength
Dealing with the stages so I can be with love again
Be with my fears so I can feel real again
Facing up to my fears so I can feel what's life again
But it's the world that I'm at now
And each of us have fears in us to break down
And until we break them all our negative cycles continue
So be with your pain but don't let pain contain you
Because this is the world that I'm at now
And each of us have fears in us to break down
And until we break them all our negative cycles continue
So be with your pain but don't let pain contain you
Be with your pain but know that's not all there is to you
Still so much left in you, still to shine through