I'm under the gun to make decisions and it happens constantly I wonder if people around me will offer more than voices deafening me I'm so sick of living this way And I don't really mind if they seem unscathed I'm not afraid of what they hide. I look closer, it's sad and awful I have nowhere to run, I'll face the sun Because I feel my skin burning even in the dark The pain remains so close. I would like to know how to act When I feel the sunlight scratching my eyelids Maybe it's just telling me that I shouldn't aim so high My expectations are repelling who I love When I need you the most I find myself alone... This is not the time for you to hear me I don't wanna be the one who brings the bad news It used to shine so bright, but it's fading And the windows of my soul are closed and blurred It's so hard to find reassurance when I'm hopeless. I would like to know how to act When I feel the sunlight scratching my eyelids Maybe it's just telling me that I shouldn't aim so high My expectations are repelling who I love When I need you the most I find myself alone... What if you are not here in the end?