I feel the walls caving in, I watched the candle burn out Sleep don't live here no more, while these shadows surround me Nowhere to turn, I just can't seem to outrun it And I'm tired of running, all this running from nothing Slowly drowning in my vices I just want to feel something How come the things we love, seem to kill without warning I'll swallow the sea, to fill the hole in me I can't open my eyes, I'm lost in this blue dream Distant nightmares turn to reality Searching for the pieces that once made me happy I'll never let it show, but this pain still grows I'll keep on wearing this mask at least in place of a rope Until I've gained the strength to stand on broken bones Because I know that someday, life again will grow I've never been here before, let me learn to bleed Let me watch the blood stain the snow, beneath my feet Let me learn to breathe, oh let me learn to see Cause it feels like my worlds been ripped from underneath me This pain can be my home I suppose... But the ivy inched higher with each passing season And my sunburn it blistered The cuts on my fingers Raw and bleeding again Self-destruction or actualization? My vices are cement I need to destroy them Bricks to dust and that shit coats my lungs Close the door it has to be me Im a hollow shell and I need to be set fucking free Emptiness is all that I see But empty hands are all I can be