Absence of control Bleeding out my nose Terrified of losing my life I've stayed the same But you changed my ways Gave my everything to being who you think I am When i was younger I looked to the stars When the questions I was asking weren't being answered But now the only faith I can proclaim I hold Is living in a lockbox, wishing that my washed up ass to get a job All I do is fuck up What happened to our love I don't want to imagine that this is all my fault Bought a gun yesterday All it shoots is blame And I got my sights on anyone who's gonna leave me today I know I'm better than this I need someone to help me I can't come clean alone So put some pressure on me Now it's dark and I am shaking I can't stop rambling Incoherently I need some consistency Cus I'm not listening To my body's crying pleas Please give me more urgency Deliver me to honesty Swing the hammer on my demons Just make sure you don't kill them This is my This is my This is my unfortunate future This is my This is my This is my unfortunate future This is my This is my This is my unfortunate future This is my This is my This is my unfortunate future now So put some pressure on me To live the life that I never believed