I will try not to die until I'm dead 'Cause I'm not dead just yet And I will breathe and I will live until I stop Until my inner organs give up And I will write and I will sing with all I have To no one in particular And it is fine if it's the only thing I got 'Cause creating forever is all I want I will listen to the people I did wrong And I will try not to write another hundred songs About the girl I used to really, really love 'Cause my reality is what I focus on And I will sing about my bettering instead About the days I managed to get out of bed And I will listen, really listen to you talk 'Cause every day we grow up just a little more The road to being happier really led me here it is Paved with doctors appointments, yeah But it is also paved with empathy and love From the people I have grown to trust And the road to truly growing took me by surprise Now I'm 21, soon I'll be 25 I'll always hurt a bit, I don't think I could ever stop But just a little's always better than a lot I will promise not to die until I'm dead If you promise you will try to do the same And if you loved me once, I know you'll do your best That is all I ask and it is all okay And I can promise that I'm doing all I can Even as I'm sweating, shaking when we're holding hands I don't know if anybody understands But I'm alive right now, at last