I think I'm awake
But I can't be so sure nowadays
It's not as bad as it used to be
Like how I would burn my body at 16
It was the only one I had and it meant nothing to me
Why'd I think I deserved to bleed?
Why'd I wish that I couldn't breathe?
Cuz I know one day I can't so for now I'll enjoy the scene
The world is pretty if you look at it right
But it's hard to catch the details when you see it at night
I appreciate the darkness cuz without it nothing would be nice
I am spinning through space
We all share the same fate, so what's the point of the race?
The only race that we've got is the only race that we have
So don't end it just yet, you don't know what comes next
I don't think it gets worse, your brain only gets better
At finding its flaws and trying to solve them
It's a defense mechanism, and it's trying to hide
We're designed to hate ourselves to survive
I don't need the silence, I just don't need the noise
Cuz I know with every vowel I'll still hear your voice
Your mind is trying to trick you with the things it'll say
I'm scared of losing the present, I'm not scared of change
So just leave me alone, you know I'm all that I have
I don't know what it's like to wake up and not think of the past
My own brain tears me apart, but I know he's okay
I don't hate my existence, I'm just scared it will go away