I get so judged by all mistakes that I made in my past The scariest part of this rap game is How Long I'm gonna last and be countin' that cash I look in the mirror, I see fear in my eyes Everytime I smile, I'm telling a lie If I'm being honest, I wanna cry Man, I wanna Die I was a kid, I was a child Every decision I made It was wild I got some haters they want me dead Hopefully I never make em' smile Who's my friend who do I trust I trust god that's my dawg Am I a bad person just because I fucked up and i broke the law No, I'm not I got a Heart I will admit that I wasn't smart I had a roll in the movie they saw something and then I lost my part Yeah, it hurt It made me feel like a piece of dirt I try so hard but Everytime I try nothing ever works Look who I've become Look at what I've done I feel so numb Life isn't fun I'm on a mission to find myself I think i need help The only reason that you didn't know is cause' I keep it to myself (The only reason that you didn't Know is cause' I Keep it to Myself) I need help, I need help Lately I been suicidal Thinkin' 'bout killing myself I pray to God Show me the way Show me the way the light I'm a thief in the night If you ever need my advice I'd probably tell you that everything will be alright But the truth is I don't even believe the Words that are comin' right outta my mouth Money the root of all evil I'm thinking of burning my house down Down to the ground when noones around My Mind, My Body, My Soul is Lost An they all know it to be found Maybe they're just out of town I hope, i see them again I'm losing all of my friends Yeah, I said that I repent They don't know where I have been Yeah I did allot of evil Yeah I did allot of evil But when I make music like this song I make it for the people Look who I've become Look at what I've done I feel so numb Life isn't fun I'm on a mission to find myself I think I need help The only reason you didn't know Is cause' I keep it to myself (The only reason you ain't know is cause'I keep it to myself) I need help, I need help, I need help I said I need help, I need help, I need help I need help, I need help, I need help (The only reason that you didn't know is cause' I keep it to myself)