It's a different day now
Instead I pray now
Let me clear my head and just drive all night
I'm feeling weighed down
Let me scream loud
How I really have nothing left to say
And understand that you can tell me how to feel,
But most the time I don't agree,
Why you begging me to stay when I just really wanna leave?
So let me fade out
Turn the lights out
And just let me be the person I was too afraid to be
For my protection I'ma stand behind these brick walls
And I don't wanna talk as I'm glancing at all these missed calls
Pounding on the pavement got both of my fists balled
And anything that's toxic, cut the cord and let me withdrawal,
It's not the fact of having plaques and signing autographs
Success to me is every time I make my daughter laugh
I wish my grandparents would've got a chance to meet my daughter
It's important I stay on fire til I reach the water
Everyday that passes swear that life is getting harder
As I'm rummaging through the dirt
On my hands and knees like a gardener
I got a best friend, a sidekick, a little girl to raise
So I'ma do my job until I reach the pearly gates
I need to put the bat down and stop with my abusive ways
And give myself a chance, yea,
To make it through this confusing maze
So why's it feel wrong to do right, that's growing pains
And I'ma keep addressing addiction until you know my name
I'm never slowing down or finding time to hit the brakes
Only God can judge me for my issues and mistakes
Through all the sadness and the chaos, I'ma make it out
Cause I remember the day I overdosed inside that vacant house
Good and evil many days its hard to pick a side
No matter what I'm going through I'm trying to enjoy the ride
See my drive is so intense it's hard to witness with the naked eye
Through all the thunderstorms
I'm finding shelter now I'm staying dry
It's a different day now
Instead I pray now
Let me clear my head and just drive all night
I'm feeling weighed down
Let me scream loud
How I really have nothing left to say
And understand that you can tell me how to feel,
But most the time I don't agree,
Why you begging me to stay when I just really wanna leave?
So let me fade out
Turn the lights out
And just let me be the person I was too afraid to be
My self-esteem and confidence is always running low
These catastrophes I'll take them as they come and go
My audience relates to me
My struggles have created me
I always find the strength
That is the reason you're not breaking me
I'm staying til it's safe
I noticed that the rest left
And even though it's scary
I'm still willing to take the next step
My connection with my fans is something I adore
Cause I have felt that feeling of misery that you've endured
All this anger that I'm letting out
It's coming from a defected mouth
I wanna get out of here
I truly need to plan an exit route
Abandon responsibilities and maybe catch a flight
And leave this place behind
And brighten the darkness with this match I light
These amputees will ways try to lend a hand to help
But I am stubborn
And half the time, look I can't stand myself,
Now when it comes to dealing with issues
I'm a different breed
Fake friends with motives,
Ferocious, they got some tricks up sleeves
Let me travel far until I reach my destination
I always try to fill the void when I feel awfully vacant
I want to vanish, disappear and suffer on my own
And go in the wrong direction isolate, hide and just break my phone
So I could face it all
But I would rather run away
No matter what has happened
I am grateful for another day
And I can never escape myself my thoughts are always listening
And anywhere I go
I always take my problems with me
It's a different day now
Instead I pray now
Let me clear my head and just drive all night
I'm feeling weighed down
Let me scream loud
How I really have nothing left to say
And understand that you can tell me how to feel,
But most the time I don't agree,
Why you begging me to stay when I just really wanna leave?
So let me fade out
Turn the lights out
And just let me be the person I was too afraid to be