Trying to be distant
Never works, it never works
In a sudden instant
I'm overwhelmed and I'm hurt
I wanna hold out, run out, tell you to get out
Push you away
Then beg you to stay
Destroy your emotions and make you feel broken
As if to say
"Now we're even"
Trying to be distant
Never works, it doesn't work
In a sudden instant
I hate that I made you hurt
I wanna hold you, grab you, fall down and pull you
Into my bed
Let you hold my head
You heal my emotions, bring me back from broken
As if you had said
"Now we're even"
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The tumult in me might be slowing down
But the vertigo will never go away
When you aren't with me, I will hope to drown
A hollow heart is holier than anything we say
Our golden past is broken glass from times we've gone astray
There's bullets in my mattress; you killed me where I lay
If you're nothing more than liminal, then I'll be on my way
Hold me
I'm not okay
Hold me
I'm not okay