I wore a dirty shirt to work today
Because I didn't have the foresight
To wash my clothes
And the last time that I felt like
I had any semblance of control
Was when I finally remembered
My mother's birthday in October
Remembering things isn't my strong suit
I forgot to wear a jacket when it's much too cold
It seems to me the weather changed
But I wasn't ready for the rain
I sat outside and tried to soothe my brain
I'd clean my room but it's not worth it
And people who make their beds like they're so fuckin perfect
And I don't need drinks
To help me forget
Stupid thoughts enter my brain
Will they ever exit
Can the leaves just fucking change
When October's green it just isn't the same
I tie my hopes to a maple leaf
And watch it fly away
Napping for a few hours
I open the window to catch a breeze
Cause I knew when I woke up
I wouldn't be able to breathe
I forgot how nice it was in October
It warms my heart when the weather gets colder