I don't like to feel the wind
As it's blowing on my skin
'Cause I don't fit it
The way I want to
I can't open up my mouth
Without the insults pouring out
That I swallowed down with a glass or two
Is this a weakness you can see?
See you staring, hearing me
I might just take your grimace for disgust
Don't you open up my mind
Don't you take a look inside
I'm a person you don't wanna have to trust
Do I look like I'm unhappy?
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying?
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough
What can I fit in these hands?
Will my parents understand
That I never meant to push them both away?
As I sit at 4am
Wondering just what I am
I am scared of things that I could truly say
I'm a monster and a freak
And as the cracks begin to leak
My whole mind makes murder of my memories
I climb a mountain of my sins
But I know I can't begin
To surmount the acid clouds in front of me
Do I look like I'm unhappy?
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying?
But I know the truth
I did not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough
I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I don't wanna eat anything anymore
I don't wanna feel everything anymore
I don't wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I don't wanna eat anything anymore
I don't wanna feel everything anymore
I don't wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don't wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don't wanna be dead anymore
Do I look like I'm unhappy?
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying?
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough
Do I look like I'm unhappy?
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying?
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough