Prescription pills in these meaningless mills
Got me chewing my tongue cause I'm stuck In my mind
Got these non fiction skills I am climbing these stills
Like the tree where I hung and the rope that I tied, but the
Infliction drills I'm at war for the thrill Thantophobia young
Playing Russian roulette and the addiction kills I'm diseased like the crook
You drink the lean (promethazine) to help you're mental health
You don't really give it one you care bout how you look
(Double negatives find the balance please)
Takes someone to die to really make a change it's fucked up
(I've been saying it, the drugs you take a laced)
Rest in peace to Peep I be counting the sheep instead of him
(In my dreams I now see the people fake)
I've been calling out for help but that isn't this album yet
But, But still
Yeah I'm upset, she took my heart out to play with yep
I'm a mess, need a vest to protect the chest
Best are the realist but not the fearless, yeah
Anarchy (when I spit) And it's key (when I fit)
Anakin with the flows got the force when she blows
Talking bout down below If already didn't know
Bitch yeah look my eyes are shook
Head is heavy from the pills I took, cooked
Get home use to pop a cone to the dome
Your raps are foam, mine are hard to the bone
Put my soul on the track and it will last forever
Cause I don't want it back I wanna be a mortal
Although it may seem to you that I am crazy
I spent all day in room writing me lazy
Haunting, daunting, taunting v v v voices, choices, noises (deadly)
Schizophrenic I mimic specific analytics
Like a psychopath on acid thinking my amygdala is broken
I can not survive alive, alone inside, my mind I die
I want nirvana can't I know what's on the other side I'm broken
I cannot help it (I cannot help it)
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
I can't control my head, he want's me fucking dead
Blood shed is dripping red, something that he said
All this for suicide, I do not want to die
Happened when you arrived, but you want me crucified
Crush me like the carbon of a thousand diamonds
Crush me like the carbon of a thousand diamonds
I was the one who helped you
Through the thick and thin but I fell through
Dimly flicked sin against divine law
Finished the apple, one bite to the core (fuck)
There was no resurrection for me
Understand now it is time to leave
Hope when I go you will never grieve
No longer sipping red, cause the club says deceased
Body and mind and I can't seem to get him out
He is a god stood defiant of man
This for the people who did undermine the boy
Coming to grips, over lapping your plans
People for people I'm slaying these demons
And coming with hits to define who I am
As a man as a god as a person you know
I'm the danger who lurks In the shadows of angels
I fuck up your Safezone and turn it to Sulfur
From fire I bring with the wrath of the ancients
I pluck all the pins from your head, call me Clive
And I'm darker than hell Aftermath then I leave it
Payments of payouts I'll leave you all nameless
With nothing to obtain your words are now painless
Got verses of versus but no competition
I sit here and win like I didn't have patients
But at the same time I feel the innocence of my decay
I'm venerable so please show me the way
I feel the beat of heart escalate but in a sense I am free
I'm sensitive to things you say a touch from you will pull me through
I have made it to the peak but I am scared of heights so pull me low
Doors are meant to be shut but trap me to the floor
I feel the draft of winds so cold enough to match the heart of yours
I need a sense of wellbeing to be myself again
The prescription's relate to my upbringing so it's ironic
To say I'm happy while eating meals because I've been dished
With shit my whole life
If I forever felt good, would I feel good at all
If there was no depression to begin with, what was I fighting for
If there's no reason to live, then why do I survive
If every word has been written before then why must I write