So far it's been tough
So far it's been rough
But I can't sleep now with a prison in my head will I be forgiving the minimal living?
I don't want to see death no more
But I want to see life and I want to see a lot of them that I know and love
I don't want to see them struggle I m-m-m-mumble and struggle to tell you I love you
It's just hard
But I want you to know this
No matter how deep in the process
6 feet ain't enough for me to love less
You're still my heartbeat just know this
From the hearse to a dirt bed
Transitions so quick for me to gather emotions feelings prominently comatose
But now I know
How it feels to be
Dead inside functioning perfect
But emotionally immobile crippled within the skull it's hurting
Organs working but my thoughts are fucking bursting
Make way for mercy
(We all know this)
This feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
(We all know this)
This feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
(We all know this)
This feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
We suffer, grieve and carry on
The love is never gone
The love is never gone
But I'm telling you this while I breakdown
Be strong 'cause love ain't gone, it lingers
Absent but it keeps us captivated
My mind is never vacant
These memories never faded, never deceased
Immortal through thought, memories keep me at peace
I'm breaking down
I'm breaking down, but what I found was memories, looked around and suddenly gained this energy and sound
Your vivid image surrounded me
Searching my past was healing me it astounded me
And I know it's hard reminiscing but hold the thoughts from the past
I grasp and I hold what is real, because I know that it won't last
We're loving way too much lose but it happens every day so what's the use
Of loving something so dearly that will be departed from you?
I keep bumping this unhealed bruise I think I may need room to move
But this room is becoming smaller like a tomb
And I'm still searching for something looking for somebody that I'm loving but they're gone
Under the gravel you grab hold of your thought
Escape the claw from the reaper
Grasping my thoughts
What am I to acknowledge?
All I see is departure
This is the devils art
And my face is filling the newest picture
And he's just started
So tell me am I next?
Confess the fucking truth about life and death
Is it a set thing?
Why are these people just dropping dead?
Why have they left?
I see the silhouettes of these armies trying to attack
So much sweat its forming puddles
I'm drowning so vivid now I see my death
I need a breath
And I'm just waiting for him to pass by
Just give me a chance I want to look him in the eye
Extends his arm as I extend mine cautious
When you enter night it's pitch black before the sun sets
Shadow in the night it's out of context
How do I see what I can't sense?
Intense mark of events
When will he show?
'Cause now I know
How it feels to be dead inside functioning perfect
But emotionally immobile crippled within the skull it's hurting
Organs working but my thoughts are fucking bursting
Make way for mercy
And I know you know
And I know you know this feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
(We all know this)
This feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
(We all know this)
This feeling even though we don't want to know what it brings
(We all know this)
We suffer, grieve and carry on
The love is never gone
The love is never gone
But I'm telling you this while I breakdown
Be strong 'cause love ain't gone it lingers
Absent but it keeps us captivated my mind is never vacant
These memories never faded, never deceased
Immortal through thought, memories keep me at peace
I'm breaking down
I'm breaking down, but what I found was memories, looked around and suddenly gained this energy
Your sound and vivid image surrounded me
Searching my past was healing me it astounded me
Give it up
Not yet
Give it up
Not yet
Never am I giving up