It don't matter if I'm dead or alive I'm still living my life, yeah I won't be wasting my time Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah I'm facing my own demise I just need a little piece of mind, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive Cause I'm breaking no faking Just self medicated i'm stuck in A dark place I got nowhere else to go inside my headspace My problems, no they don't define me I try to put them all behind me I'm not running from my past any longer You would think that all this shit would make me stronger I can't wait till it's over I'll think about it when I'm sober These demons are getting closer So I tell myself (I tell myself) It don't matter if I'm dead or alive I'm still living my life, yeah I won't be wasting my time Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah I'm facing my own demise I just need a little piece of mind, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive What am I to do? Feeling so confused Numb or depressed, nothing new But yeah I know The drugs won't help me choose Kill all my anxiety but you call that abuse Falling so deep I could die I just can't find the person I left behind These days it's so hard to breathe Down on my knees it's taking a toll on me I made a promise, promise To get rid of all this, all this Why am I like this? like this No I don't deserve this It don't matter if I'm dead or alive I'm still living my life, yeah I won't be wasting my time Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah I'm facing my own demise I just need a little piece of mind, yeah It don't matter if I'm Barely hanging on I'm too far gone Draggin' along It don't matter if I'm dead or alive I'm still living my life, yeah I won't be wasting my time Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah I'm facing my own demise I just need a little piece of mind, yeah It don't matter if I'm dead or alive (Barely hanging on i'm too far gone) (Dragging along) It don't matter if I'm dead or alive (Barely hanging on i'm too far gone) (Dragging along) It don't matter if I'm dead or alive (It don't matter if I'm dead or alive)