And do you think it's easy Sometimes I think that I am not real How to explain to the fish in the tank That the water can't always be clear How to move in the right direction How to discern the night from day How to forget the love and laughter How to freeze and numb the pain How to hold them close to say That I am on my way out But I don't know how to say goodbye It's a starting over But not ready to fly I'm leaving all I've ever known For where only I I do not know And the closer I get The farther I have to go Raining bougainvillea petals Smoking candles in the day How to keep all the letters and words From trying to run off the page Trying not to think too much Still trying to move In the right direction Losing picks along the way Forgetting all the things to say How to tell them it's okay When I'm not okay Cuz I am on my way out But I don't know how to say goodbye It's a starting over Am I ready to fly I'm leaving all I've ever known For where only I I do not know And as I near the open door I know it's one I have to close But the closer I get The closer I get The more I'll have to grow