Let me walk you through my day, yeah?
This what I did yesterday
Take you there
Uh (talk to 'em)
So I look at the road that I'm walkin', goes against the manual
They say that it's gone in the blink of an eye, I say it's more gradual
Don't blink for the flash or you'll miss it, take us to remission to handle feuds
This why it's so important to be so careful who you let counsel you
I been tryna pick myself off my feet, that's my own right
People throw stones from glass houses, worry 'bout your own life
Unstudious, careless niggas speakin' outta self and outta context
But I'm honest, it couldn't make me hate on a nigga re-regardless, I tell you
I'm stuck in hot winds and I can only keep it blowin'
I said to all my homies, "Call me if you gettin' lost"
But somewhere along the way, I feel my self was gettin' crossed
Worried so much 'bout other people that my own soul was on pause, hol' up
I cannot help tryna make myself roll up
Overavailable, takin' a toll
A friend of mine tried to talk to me
And you wouldn't believe how quickly I froze up
Fell apart right in front of her, when I had to face this fact from the flo' up
You can't try to housekeep everyone else if it leave yo' own house tore up
Always lied to me and said it's stronger
But running from the pain will only make it last longer
Tired of mental problems actin' like a shadow of a stalker
Cut off friends for time to myself, and now that I've had this time to ponder
Man, I think that's the reason that
None of it ends
I try to distract but I'm stuck in a panic
Fixing to self-destruct, anti-mechanic
And they all see that I'm stuck in the traffic, it ain't no hidin' no more
I feel exposed, feel like I cannot react
I'm stayin' in my room for so long nowadays, they think I'm a Cli...
Man, is it worth it?
Is it worth the pain? Is it worth the change? I feel like Urk' today
Did I do it? I'm doing as much as I'm moving
My nigga, I been told since birth to play
But I promise you, I've never had to worry so much about what my words convey
Off that certain plate made by a burdened place
Just pray to God none of us burn today
I'm fixin' to speak out
Tell all of them stress niggas, "Keep out"
Coppy niggas treat niggas like they oppy niggas
What our dawgs doing? Why ain't the leash out?
Try out turnin' the cheek now
'Cause every headline's of people like me no longer can roam the streets now (why?)
That's why the hell I gotta preach loud (why?)
And I don't know about you, but I feel distraction's no longer an option (it ain't)
Because, these two things equal, they sure as hell ain't stoppin' (they ain't either)
So when the clouds come back to my wake, act like they floggin'
I'll remind myself that I'm the OG on top, man, it's Tox