If only the world would swallow me up It would be better than telling you this I don't want to be sad anymore My heart is so sick I can't feel our love Think I've lost the trick Your eyes have so much faith in me But your faithful eyes are closed to see My conscience is toxic I don't want to hurt you anymore We focused ahead We put here and now Packed beneath our bed And now I'm just a block of ice Looking for a heart that could suffice I loved you so badly I want to understand myself I want for life to happen I don't want to lose you If only I could, I would choose you I don't know where I'm going to go Or how long I'll be gone I wish I had some way of knowing I wish I could say "Don't move on" I wish I could say this isn't done But everything inside me says run Run I'm leaving my keys I'm leaving my phone I took a little cash to start things out on my own I'm sorry I failed you This is how we grow