I can never be who you thought I was
I will never think how you want me to think
I get a rush from knowing I am self sufficient
Take what I have once again and I'll build more
These are the days when I'm young I would kill for
Yet here I stand in the middle of the ashes
Of once was the light to my passion
You can say what you wanted
Go on cut me to the core
I don't bleed like I used to it's like I just ignore
In time the shield is waiting behind
And when people cross the line
They don't get the same reaction
As they used to
I get so angry annoyed at the small things
Pushing self care to the side
But of all things I know that
It's not helping me in the long run, yeah
Like doing clean up with a shotgun, yeah
That's just overkill
And what I really need now
Is to go find a thrill
To keep my soul around
These memories are like my ether
I guess pain's the best teacher
You can say what you wanted
Go on cut me to the core
I don't bleed like I used to it's like I just ignore
In time the shield is waiting behind
And when people cross the line
They don't get the same reaction
As they used to
I get obsessed with my dreams and my nightmares
Thoughts run away as they float into thin air
I'm dying to see something different than this
I've been risking my life for a moment of bliss, yeah
Saying I'm happy right now would be lying
Days where I wake up for no reason crying
But love is a risk that I'm willing to take
All these promises made
Like a motor they break with time
You can say what you wanted
Go on cut me to the core
I don't bleed like I used to it's like I just ignore
In time the shield is waiting behind
And when people cross the line
They don't get the same reaction
As they used to
You can say what you wanted
Go on cut me to the core
I don't bleed like I used to it's like I just ignore
In time the shield is waiting behind
And when people cross the line
They don't get the same reaction
As they used to