Just want to close my eyes and go to sleep And pray the lord my soul to keep There's no life left in this life of mine I'm growing old before my time I'm weak of will and the hunger's died I'll disappoint you no matter how hard I try Don't even care about starting again Don't even care about calling back my friends Like a mother you can't leave Or a friend you can't avoid It took me thirty six years to realise I hate what I am Big time dreams from small town girls Long distance calls to another world Unspoken secrets and domestic bliss No time to tell no time to kiss I want to see your face I want to hear your song We've been holding back for far too long From Lovers Lane to Liverpool From someone's baby to nobody's fool Like a lover you cant leave Or a friend you can't avoid It took me thirty six years to realise I hate what I am