Change my last name, hope that I can move on If I ditch that name, still can't escape the hate I came from The anxiety and all these feelings that cloud up my mind And waste all my time I've been living with no progress in my own life Spent my life searching for a scapegoat But it was just me in the end Carrying the happiness of those I love And my back is giving in Another late night shift, off at four AM Passed out on the couch again I'll watch the sun rise over the James And tell myself I'm not as fucked up as my friends Anxiety ruined my life, be it in my home or my own mind Can't clear my head to take it all in I couldn't find a single reason At one point I had a chance But anger moved in and shook these steady hands Changed my plans Put doubt behind every word Ten years too late so I bite the curb Spent my life searching for a scapegoat But it was just me in the end Carrying the happiness of those I love And my back is giving in To be the exception to the selfishness in this borrowed, broken world If I can't change, I'm just another boy who's far too concerned It's all I know There ain't a man in me No, I ain't much to see Spent my life searching for a scapegoat But it was just me in the end Carrying the happiness of those I love And my back is giving in To be the exception to the selfishness in this borrowed, broken world If I can't change, I'm just another boy who's far too concerned