Ayy
Sometimes I
Wanna run away to ease my monkey brain
The chatter don't stop, no cappin'
I been up for so long with a bad bish
Tryna work it non-stop, but I been so lost
Navigatin' with a broken compass
Hyped by the bullshit, hate the dumb shit
Prime time to kill shit, beat the drum kit
Downtime will kill ya, seekin' somethin', no way
I'ma K.O this shit, it's O.K
Built too strong to let it go
Nothin' set in stone, time is all that it takes
I ain't goin' home, it's time to go play
I'ma put it on for team
I'ma put it on for my dreams, the clock is on J
Nobody gonna sink this shot for me
Watch me drop a three right on top of these snakes
Swish, take it back to the basics
Tryna breathe, give myself a facelift
Can't outrun the demons chasin' me
But I be lacin' up my motherfuckin' ASICS
The young gemini born to set alight
Born on day six in a place with
The same name, but the game changed
Ever since he lane switched, pickin' up a pen and pad
Not forgettin' every hurdle that he had
Lovin' good and bad, seems he got the knack
For channelling music, the rearview is ruined
He's never lookin' back, so long to the B.S
Look where he is, charged up, no Prius
The property is hot
Better move it, or you're gonna be lost
Find yourself straight chillin' on a cemetery plot
R.I.P., don't try for the bar I reach
Tryna leave a mark by the time I leave
I can't sleep with the thoughts that I won't achieve
Everything that I've fought for, there's no relief, I'm so lost
Still tryna build the life that I want
So I tell the overwhelm to go to hell
All with a poker face like Botox
But behind it all the chatter won't stop
I can't seem to sleep anymore
It's like whenever I'm about to close my eyes
Everything I've done in my life that I'm not happy with
Just comes at me and at me and at me (yeah)
It doesn't stop! (Ayy)
Won't lie, I
Need to break the chains and mould around me
Damn, is something gon' change?
Otherwise I'd be up in that grave
Rollin' around, look at the mess that I made
Still see myself as a young me
Thick-skinned, but this shit getting ugly
I'm repeatin' the patterns I thought didn't matter
Depravity keeping me keen on the damagin' lovelies
You don't need nothin', young John
With the r-r-repeat button stuck on
Tryna heal deep but everything keepin' me
From releasin', so I've held on
But this shit ain't servin' me, decide today
My purpose be to burn all the b-ridges
Might not move a mountain straight away
But I'm determined that I'ma see inches, what?
Yeah, it's better than nothing, buried the hatchet
Forgiven enemies, never gon' get a reaction
Dealt with the flammables, I did away with the matches
Never reactive
Animals, soundin' so vicious but when I be seein' them, yappin'
Give 'em a treat, and then watch 'em retreat
'Cause they lovin' the drama, they a bunch of actors
But the chatter goes on
Nothin' been stoppin', I been tryin' for so long
Lettin' go of everything, seems I held on
Forgiven all my enemies, ex-girlfriends, and every part of me
I felt the world did wrong
My old man and ones who fit this song
But the world don't owe me shit, my parents split
Age five, what a lonely kid, but I can choose to see this gone
So I do
Ain't no livin' in cells, about time, I'm forgivin' myself
With every word I recite, it's beginnin' to help
It took a while, but no more livin' in hell, I move on
This time I breathe, a new John
No more losin' sleep for too long
Stuck in-between the sheets, I've learnt to deal
Beneath and so now it seems I'm too strong
For the shit that used to hold me back
And keep me up alone, now I've found me the key
And the key seems to be repeatedly
Writing on keys on the keys on my phone
Letting it go, release, delete
All of the ghosts, they cease to be
Catching the Z's, the deepest sleep
It's happenin', peace, it speaks to me
No longer am I held captive
By my thoughts and the war I was trapped in
Everything seemin' like action, action, action
Now I'm in awe, 'cause the magic's happened
Met by a dream and a clock
Dark room with the ticks and the tocks
Don't wanna pre-empt, awaken a demon
For now, it is seemin' the chatter has stopped